oh stuff...

I was talking to one of my good friends at work and it reminded me of this...

About two years ago I was going through a time when I was-crying everyday, sleeping a ton, eating bags of candy, and getting angry at Jason super easy (I wasn't PMSing cause it was going on and on)

So one of my bible study teachers told me to write down all my issues on a piece of paper and under them put scriptures that will help me see the truth more clearly or that would comfort me. So I did.

I wanted to post em.

Scripture to Transform my mind

1. I feel crazy

God is not a God of confusion, but a God of peace. 1 Corinthians 14:33

My Lord, I belong to you.  I tell you what worries me, and you won't let me fall. Psalm 55:22

2. Life is hard, I'd rather die or just go away

I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. Hebrews 12:2-3

3. I’m frustrated with where I’m at in my career

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
          

The Lord Who bought you and saves you, the Holy One of Israel, says, "I am the Lord your God, Who teaches you to do well, Who leads you in the way you should go. Isaiah 48:17

 4. I doubt the existence of God

See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness. We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first. As has just been said: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion." Hebrews 3:12-15

5. I fear trusting God in every area of my life

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, 
and lean not on your own understanding

In all your ways acknowledge Him, 
and He shall direct your paths. 
Proverbs 3:5-6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, that transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:6-7

6. I am frustrated sometimes when I pray

“Evening and morning and at noon I will pray, and cry aloud and He shall hear my voice.”   Psalm 55:17

           

“If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire and it shall be  done for you.” John 15:7

7. I want to numb my thoughts and feelings (by doing outrageous things, drinking, yelling, eating)

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:1-2

8. I feel so empty and hurt

           

            He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3

The Lord will always lead you. He will meet the needs of your soul in the dry times and give strength to your body. You will be like a garden that has enough water, like a well of water that never dries up. Isaiah 58:11

9. I want to be joyful

I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill me completely with joy and peace because I trust in Him. Then I will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

10. I feel depressed

“I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.  He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what He has done and be astounded. They will put their trust in the Lord.”

Psalm 40:1-2

           

           

Guh...

I haven't spent quality time talking with God today. J and I are going to a wedding this afternoon and he's in it, so he is out doing wedding day stuff.

I'm here by myself at the Country Inn Suites blow drying my hair- feeling lonely and anxious. As I'm blow drying my hair-it gets sucked into the back of it and I have to yank it out to break free, which only irritates my already anxious mood.  I start having thoughts like, "Hmm I don't feel like getting ready, I don't like being alone. I should just go lose myself in the internet; flip through Facebook, gmail, blogs, and music videos. I feel crappy and when I feel crappy that comforts me."

As I'm debating about spending my last free moments of the day on the internet instead of talking with God, I eat five cookies. All the while I hear in my head, "None of that will make you feel better."

guh...I want to make the better decision and sit with my bible open- pouring out my heart to God, but I don't -

I eat the 5 cookies and get on the internet to write this.

And now with my free time spent I'm off to the wedding with my hair blow dried, blog written and quality time spent with God=zero

"you have been given fullness in Christ [not cookies or the internet]." Colossians 2:10

aglow

God has made it more and more obvious what He wants me to do to serve Him in this season. And I can't tell you how weird it is on one hand to experience joy in it as tears well up in someones eyes as they experience His love or when they tell me that seeking Him is what they want to do. But at the same time experiencing fear about being bold and stepping out talking to people about deep things of the heart.

God, I have so much desire to see people seek first your kingdom and your righteousness. Such a strong desire that they would long to love you with all their heart, all their soul, all their strength and all their mind. Would you continue to give me grace? Would you continue to fill me with Your love, so that I can turn around and pour it out? Would you continue to show me how to love and encourage?

Oh, how I need you Lord to..."never lag in zeal and in earnest endeavor; [to] be aglow and burning with the Spirit, serving [You]." Romans 12:11 (amplified version)

love you already

I see your face all the time. You always look different though, so it makes me curious to know what you'll actually look like.
Sometimes I'll imagine comforting you or reading to you, while you ask me tons of questions (which might irritate me-sorry). Or sometimes I imagine what I'm going to teach you, or how much I'll give you for allowance each week.
I can just picture you in your stripped little onesie.
I am not even pregnant with you and sometimes it will pop into my head, "Oh I hope we have interesting and fun traditions at Christmas time."
And Jason and I joke about your name, well not your name cause we won't end up giving you the one we joke about, but we like Hayley, Camden and Jackson so far.
I long to learn all the intricate parts of your personality that will make you you're own person
I can't wait to pray with you and seek Him together even about little stuff like comfort for ouwies, asking Him to help you not be afraid of the dark, and thanking Him for your mac and cheese.
A friend of mine told me that you're going to bring so much joy to our home, I can't wait to hear you laugh. I crack up easily, so we should have fun!

Precious baby, I want you to know that we are praying for you: your health, your heart and your love for family, friends and Him.

And I want you to know that I'm asking Him to prepare us for you: our health, our family, our friends, our home and our hearts for you.

love you already...

"For He choose us in Him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in His sight. In love He predestined us to be adopted as His sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will-to the praise of His glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the One He loves." Ephesians 1:4-5