When I didn't love Jesus

Jesus, I remember when I didn't know You. People who knew you told me that they loved you, worshiped you and had a relationship with You. I really had no idea what that looked like.

I remember when I was just discovering You and I was in San Francisco lying in bed one night and literally told you that I wasn't even sure of the reasons why I should love you-that I didn't get You, and that I definitely didn't feel close enough to you to love You.

Jesus, it's been over four years since then and Lord it's been incredible to read how the Bible describes you and to watch those words about you come to life as You reveal your characteristics to me day after day.

You are faithful. You care. You are my wonderful counselor. You won't leave me. You teach me what is good. You show me what is right. You are so deep, so loving, so full of life. You get me. You have perfect timing. I love and need Your wisdom. Your passion and goodness I want.You are humble, and patient. I admire and long to have your priorities.To think that you lived to end up suffering, hanging, bleeding in agony, alone on a cross, so that you could restore everything, including me....Jesus, you took me- a girl who didn't get it-cared for me, and showed me You are lovable.

Lord, would you help other girls too? Other girls, who are just like I was, would you show them how much you love them? Would You help them get it?