Then days like today happen.
So I have food allergies (wheat, soy, peanuts, and walnuts). This morning I go into work and was eating one of my "okay" snacks and a coworker felt pressed to tell me that I eat like her son, whom she proceeds to tell me is 14months old.
Hmm, not really sure how I was supposed to take that.
I try to pray it off and be the bigger person by ignoring it
That doesn't really work and so begins my unraveling for the day...
When another coworker comes up to me and tells me this amazing God story of how after he prayed on Sunday about money worries that on Tuesday a random person handed him a $1000 check because God told'em he needed it. What! Wow right?!
So sure I was smiling and happy for him, but on top of that happiness was a lot, a lot of jealousy.
I felt like a kid and my dad was playing favorites, even though God clearly does not play favorites
I just felt that way.
Which is immature
Then later another coworker comes up to me as I was ordering my lunch for the day and she looks at my long list of "no this" and "no that" and starts laughing and teasing me. I guess I had had enough because I literally in a slightly frazzled, slightly pissed tone said, "Stop making fun of me."
Whoa wait! Who freakin' says "Stop making fun of me!" Unless you are in 5th grade...again immature. (sigh) God I am soooooo immature and today proved it...please help me be the woman you want me to be. Please help me be more mature and not be so dramatic, jeez.
A woman's wisdom gives her patience, she earns respect by overlooking wrongs. Proverbs 19:11
2 comments:
I get tired of people teasing me for my diet. It's nothing new that food has a lot of emotion associated with it. Seeing other people eat my old favorite foods that have no gf equivalent (chocolate covered donuts, roundtable pizza, vegemeat) is probably the greatest cause of negative emotions for me. When I'm at my best, I pass it off as humor, i.e. "Now now, no picking on the person with food allergies." Or "Hey, you'd be bummed too if you couldn't eat your fave foods anymore." But when those emotions overwhelm me, I do sometimes snap. Is this normal? Yes. But I guess that means I'm immature too. LOL.
kimi... i love your heart, and i am confident that the Lord does too! KNOW that He loves you dearly!
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