You.

I heard a speaker today that inspired this blog post...

So, I (Kimi) used to believe that people followed a religion to feel supported or a part of something. That they belonged to a religion, because they needed a crutch or wanted to feel comfortable.

But now I see differently

If I have a choice about what religion to be a part of why would I chose to follow Christ just to belong to a group or to feel comfortable. If those were the only reasons for me to "join a religion" then there are way easier religious options out there to chose from. 

This is what the speaker was talking about. He was saying stuff like: There are religions who believe that I could end up being my own god and have my own planet (in my selfishness that sounds freakin sweet!) Or religions that say I could be reincarnated into something better than what I am right now, maybe a superstar or royalty-that my soul is immortal-no reason for heaven or hell.

 But I don't chose to follow Christ everyday to just be part of a group or to be comfortable, because sometimes it's not comfortable at all. If I wanted comfortablity I could have chosen one of the many other religions, but I choose to follow Christ because of His compelling character.

I look up to Him in so many ways.

The depth of His love for people- all people- still blows my mind.

The gentle yet powerful way He works in peoples' lives that brings awe & wonder only He can.

How He speaks and moves- I can't help but notice.

His wisdom and insight that guide my steps.

And His deep healing love-I can't get enough of.

Jesus, you are it.

you. are. it.

When I didn't love Jesus

Jesus, I remember when I didn't know You. People who knew you told me that they loved you, worshiped you and had a relationship with You. I really had no idea what that looked like.

I remember when I was just discovering You and I was in San Francisco lying in bed one night and literally told you that I wasn't even sure of the reasons why I should love you-that I didn't get You, and that I definitely didn't feel close enough to you to love You.

Jesus, it's been over four years since then and Lord it's been incredible to read how the Bible describes you and to watch those words about you come to life as You reveal your characteristics to me day after day.

You are faithful. You care. You are my wonderful counselor. You won't leave me. You teach me what is good. You show me what is right. You are so deep, so loving, so full of life. You get me. You have perfect timing. I love and need Your wisdom. Your passion and goodness I want.You are humble, and patient. I admire and long to have your priorities.To think that you lived to end up suffering, hanging, bleeding in agony, alone on a cross, so that you could restore everything, including me....Jesus, you took me- a girl who didn't get it-cared for me, and showed me You are lovable.

Lord, would you help other girls too? Other girls, who are just like I was, would you show them how much you love them? Would You help them get it?